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Major Transformation

It dawned on me today that some people have recognized that I look totally different and want to ask. So, for those that did not know how to ask, let me clear this up.

I am one of many people that have keloid scars. The medical definition of a keloid scar is:  Keloids are the excess growth of scar tissue at the site of a healed skin injury. In my family there were a few that had/have keloid scars. It was never determined why mine grew at such great lengths. The only conclusion that I have been able to draw is that I am allergic to milk. I am sure that may sound surprising but with the amount of hours that I have spent researching scars I have found that acne can cause keloid scarring. That was the only thing that made sense to me. My physicians I have never gone into the extent to do some major resarching and extensive lab work because I can handle the ones that are on my chest, shoulders, and my back. I have had some serious pain from these scars, but since relocating to Orlando they are not as bad.

However, the only one that I have ever sought treatment for is the one that was on the right side of my face. Before my surgery last year, the scar was measured at 11 inches from my right ear to the middle area under my chin and 7 inches across. I have had to endure many days where I would be in public and people would literally stop and stare  because I looked so different.  I have had people meet me and then say that they could not associate with me just because of my scar.  At the time I was like WOW, but deep down it really hurt like heck.
Now, I am free to go anywhere without people staring at me like I am a circus attraction.

What people fail to realize is that I am the same person that I was before my surgery. I can say that I am more self confident and have realized my true beauty with or without my scar.

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