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Challenging Day

Today was a challenging day. I haven’t slept much since leaving the hospital last week. What I have realized is that even though my situation has changed, God opened my eyes to show me that I was somewhere that I did not need to be. When you wake up and realize that you are sacrificing too much of yourself for a job, a relationship, is this something that you want to spend your life doing? As a single parent, I am already making sacrifices on a daily basis, why should I have to sacrifice so much more of myself for a paycheck? Is it really worth it? When it is all said and done, I realized that enough is enough.


I am so thankful to God for this door closing in my life because it showed me that there is something better. I have no idea what my future holds, but guess what? I am so ready for it. I have had the opportunity to remove all of the issues from my past that have been holding me back. I have decided that what is ahead of me is better than what I had in the past.

My encouragement for the day using words from my Pastor, Clint Brown, your latter will be greater than your past. I do not know what tomorrow holds, but I know that everything will be just fine because God has prepared the way for me.

Part 2
The first part was written before tonight’s service at Without Walls in Lakeland and there is much more that I have to say and I couldn’t close tonight with just one part. Tonight was an experience that I just cannot put in words. We prayed for a RELEASE from Generational Curses and I took at step out on faith because I want the curse to stop with me. The cycle does not have to carry on to the generations of my family after me. There have been some personal sacrifices that I have made because I am the one that sets the example for my children. I will continue to make those changes to continue to be the example that my children need to see. Yes it is okay for our children to look up to other people, but let’s start with ourselves first and take the first step and say, I want them to see me make the right choices so they will make the right choices.

After the service had ended, the OT began. It was the overflow from the service because the atmosphere was so charged that we just could not walk away from the sanctuary without more. If you were there, you know exactly what I am talking about. When Pastor Paula White prophesied that we would leave the service changed she was so right. I took a step out on faith tonight and I will never be the same again!

Good Night and God Bless!

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